6th Heavenly Birthday!

With tears streaming onto my pillow yesterday afternoon, I told my Father in Heaven that I didn’t want to face another birthday. I prefer the daily hellos and happy feels all year long from Isaac but as we near each birthday, the pain of our physical separation comes to surface. 

I’ve learned to live the daily life separated, in a positive way, but yearly around his birthday, I struggle to fight the deeper, underlying pain. Birthdays are earthly and time-centered—Isaac simply is not. He has progressed to the eternal realm and this defining separation is wherein the pain lies. 

I’ve always told myself that each day and year is another closer to being with Isaac again, but as that number gets bigger I am daunted at all the more birthdays ahead.

God knew I needed Isaac in my life, the way that he is in my life, to battle innate weaknesses, to become better, to experience a small glimpse of the beauty of heaven in a real way. There is never a day that passes without multiple hellos from Isaac or influences from heaven, though it can be painfully beautiful to recognize them. 

Happy 6 years less ‘till I can hold you again, Isaac Asher Walton! It’s gonna be another beautiful year with you in this world, the way that you’re in it. We love you to eternity and back. 💙

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