And thus, the reason I have been a slacker at blogging for the last 2 weeks. We found the house the first day we were on Galveston and went under contract the 2nd day. Today (day 3), we are in Dallas to pick Syd up and spend an unexpected bonus day or two with family here before heading back for our final month in KC.
I will make a more official post during our road trip from Dallas to KC if I'm not still slacking, but I just wanted to throw that exciting news out there and let you know why we've been MIA lately.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
I was pregnant...
Yes. I was. You would have gotten a much different announcement of it in a few more weeks.
We announced this one to our family just this past Friday with this video:
Two days later, I miscarried.
Everything went perfect with Syd; pregnancy and birth. We expected it to be the same the 2nd time around. It was. We got pregnant right away again, just as we hoped for. To me, that meant another perfect pregnancy.
Scott felt different about it. From the beginning he suspected something was not right. He just had a weird feeling. He wouldn't even completely believe the pregnancy tests until the 3rd positive.
I on the other hand, wasn't even concerned with things you hear about like the dangers of miscarriage. I was with Syd- I think that just comes with the territory of first-time moms-to-be, and because it was so smooth the first time, I was too relaxed about that possibility this time.
When I went in to the doctor on Monday, he made it very clear to me that no matter what the results were, "There is nothing you did to make this happen." 1 in 6 pregnancies end up in miscarriages; it's a natural part of reproduction, and to most women, they never even know they were pregnant; they think it is nothing more than a late period. But I knew better.
I was worried Sunday when it began, and even after the doctor told me he was concerned on Monday, I held my ground. I was let down, bummed, a little embarrassed even, but I was prepared to accept that we'd lost this baby.
I'm not one to break down very often. I did break down, Monday night, after Scott gave me a priesthood blessing for comfort. We were to get my blood test results back the next day, but I already knew the outcome. It was then that I let loose and everything became a reality. I learned that I was to rely on my husband who wants to be so much a part of everything in my life, and also that I'd learn more deeply the Plan of Salvation by experiencing it myself. Hearing that was all I needed to know.
Then I cried for the next day and a half. It was literally out of my control, the fact that I cried. This is the weird part, the part I didn't expect. The best way I can explain it, is that mentally, I had accepted it and I was fine and ready to move on. I was grateful it happened earlier on in pregnancy and not later. I knew that it happened for a reason and somehow it was probably a blessing in disguise, if nothing more than to make my character stronger and more sympathetic toward others. Mentally, I didn't need to mourn like I would if it had been Sydney instead, But it was as if my body and spirit were mourning beyond my control. I could literally feel my body and spirit mourning for me and I'd cry and not know why; I'd just cry and want to go lay down or just be still and not move.
In honor of that sweet spirit that we didn't get to meet in this life, I write this post, and for some reason I haven't been able to focus on much until I've written this. Getting things in writing has always provided some sort of closure for me. We are fine and feel very blessed. I look at Sydney as more of a miracle than I did before and I know that feeling will be the same with each little miracle that gets to join our little family. Now that saying is no longer a cliche', it's a reality. Children really are miracles!
We announced this one to our family just this past Friday with this video:
Two days later, I miscarried.
Everything went perfect with Syd; pregnancy and birth. We expected it to be the same the 2nd time around. It was. We got pregnant right away again, just as we hoped for. To me, that meant another perfect pregnancy.
Scott felt different about it. From the beginning he suspected something was not right. He just had a weird feeling. He wouldn't even completely believe the pregnancy tests until the 3rd positive.
I on the other hand, wasn't even concerned with things you hear about like the dangers of miscarriage. I was with Syd- I think that just comes with the territory of first-time moms-to-be, and because it was so smooth the first time, I was too relaxed about that possibility this time.
When I went in to the doctor on Monday, he made it very clear to me that no matter what the results were, "There is nothing you did to make this happen." 1 in 6 pregnancies end up in miscarriages; it's a natural part of reproduction, and to most women, they never even know they were pregnant; they think it is nothing more than a late period. But I knew better.
I was worried Sunday when it began, and even after the doctor told me he was concerned on Monday, I held my ground. I was let down, bummed, a little embarrassed even, but I was prepared to accept that we'd lost this baby.
I'm not one to break down very often. I did break down, Monday night, after Scott gave me a priesthood blessing for comfort. We were to get my blood test results back the next day, but I already knew the outcome. It was then that I let loose and everything became a reality. I learned that I was to rely on my husband who wants to be so much a part of everything in my life, and also that I'd learn more deeply the Plan of Salvation by experiencing it myself. Hearing that was all I needed to know.
Then I cried for the next day and a half. It was literally out of my control, the fact that I cried. This is the weird part, the part I didn't expect. The best way I can explain it, is that mentally, I had accepted it and I was fine and ready to move on. I was grateful it happened earlier on in pregnancy and not later. I knew that it happened for a reason and somehow it was probably a blessing in disguise, if nothing more than to make my character stronger and more sympathetic toward others. Mentally, I didn't need to mourn like I would if it had been Sydney instead, But it was as if my body and spirit were mourning beyond my control. I could literally feel my body and spirit mourning for me and I'd cry and not know why; I'd just cry and want to go lay down or just be still and not move.
In honor of that sweet spirit that we didn't get to meet in this life, I write this post, and for some reason I haven't been able to focus on much until I've written this. Getting things in writing has always provided some sort of closure for me. We are fine and feel very blessed. I look at Sydney as more of a miracle than I did before and I know that feeling will be the same with each little miracle that gets to join our little family. Now that saying is no longer a cliche', it's a reality. Children really are miracles!
I got this in a fortune cookie on Monday night- it was very fitting and cute; a tender mercy.
We will get our "moment" some day!
LIEUTENANT WALTON
Brace yourself, it was another eventful weekend. I'll start with the most life-changing event...
We did it! Scott took the Oath of Office last Friday June 8th and was officially sworn in to the US Army some 100 feet high on the Shawnee Mission Park Observation Tower.
She's fearless
Gettin' a lesson on how to pound the bar pins (without the backs) into his collar for after he took the oath. It's tradition.
I had the honor of pinning him
Bam! I pounded that thing just like I was trained :) Jk, I could only make myself tap it...
..because I love him :)
Meet Lieutenant Walton!
It's a little weird transitioning from the civilian world to the military world, even though it won't really hit us for four more years. First off, all the military guys immediately started calling Scott "Sir" because he outranked a few of them. Second off, we're not used to the awesome insurance discounts and other benefits yet, but we'll take it! He'll go to school as normal for the next four years and then report at a military base hospital to do his residency. After residency he'll owe 4 years more. So we'll be in the military world for the next 12 years, even though we won't realize it until residency starts and we have to move to base.
Right now he's commissioned as Lieutenant in the IRR- Inactive Ready Reserves, and will be active at the end of these next 4 years.
There are many reasons why we chose this to be a great route for our family, the least of which may even be the pay. I'm sure you'll hear about all those things as they come; until then, THANK YOU ARMY for paying for Med. school.
X FACTOR TICKETS
We got free tickets through On Camera Audiences to the taping of X Factor auditions (singing competition show like American Idol) while they were here in Kansas City last weekend.
To be honest, I have never seen the show, only heard of it and I figured if Simon Cowell and Britney Spears were a part of it it was worth going to, especially for free!
Simon Cowell was "under the weather" for our Friday night taping which was pretty lame but Britney, Demi Lovato, and L.A. Reid were still the judges of the night. It was interesting to see what it was like before all the editing takes place- a lot longer and drawn out with more breaks to reapply makeup and get drinks. Other than that, it could have been an impressive church talent show.
I learned that Britney Spears was always "bored" and didn't have as much of a personality as I would have liked for someone to have, and Demi Lovato was always "on the fence," which got old to hear after seriously about 25 times of hearing it. You KNOW they'll be editing all that repetitiveness out for the show. It's definitely more exciting to see a movie star or famous musician when they are the one performing. L.A. had great things to say and I only wish Simon had not been sick.
After the editing, the lights, music, large crowd and presence of Hollywood stars, the TV shows seem like a bigger deal than they were when they were taped. I guess it's all a big deal though, especially the 4 million $ and life changing future involved for the winner!
Wow, Mike. Way to make everyone look like midgets ;)
We're famous
Michelle and Jeff
Mike and Mel
Matt, Heather, Me, Scotty and Mich
Total church talent show. These girls actually came together at their church.
Britney Spears
Fun night :)
It really was a busy weekend; the kind where everything is fun but you can't help but be either annoyed that there's another place you have to be or stressed out because you just want to sit and do nothing. Besides Scott being commissioned as an officer, and the X-Factor show, there were two separate family birthday celebrations and we also had a neighborhood garage sale which we participated both Friday and Saturday.
And yes, that is where we got Sydney's 50 cent outfit from last post which actually cost less than 50 cents because we bought so much (each item at 25 cents, we couldn't control ourselves!). The grandpa talked his daughter into selling as much as we could fit into a box for 5 bucks. So we filled two. Syd is gonna be one well dressed baby until she's size 3T. That was definitely a once-in-a-lifetime jack-pot garage sale- awesome stuff for a steal (and a lot of it still had tags!). We were grateful for the little neighbor girl who had a grandma who spoiled her rotten with way to many super cute clothes, shoes, swimsuits and dresses.
And yes, that is where we got Sydney's 50 cent outfit from last post which actually cost less than 50 cents because we bought so much (each item at 25 cents, we couldn't control ourselves!). The grandpa talked his daughter into selling as much as we could fit into a box for 5 bucks. So we filled two. Syd is gonna be one well dressed baby until she's size 3T. That was definitely a once-in-a-lifetime jack-pot garage sale- awesome stuff for a steal (and a lot of it still had tags!). We were grateful for the little neighbor girl who had a grandma who spoiled her rotten with way to many super cute clothes, shoes, swimsuits and dresses.
We finished off the weekend with this awesomeness. It was a going away party for my two brothers in laws' cousin (two brothers married my two sisters..).
Adult Slip 'N Slide, Anyone?!
Syd LOVED it! She kept asking for "More? More?!"
Scott clearly won that race...
Waiting patiently in line... :)
Sydney rocked the Adult slip 'n slide
A random snake that decided to join the party...
Told ya! FEARLESS!! She gave him a little tap, tap.
Good times. It's been nice to rest a little this week.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Daddy Did Sydney's Hair for Church
He used my straightener, my hair pins and hairspray. This may be one of the first times she's ever worn her hair down as a style. She looks so much older! She looks so cute. I'm going to have to start having him do my hair!
Oh, and just to give you a little foreshadowing for the next post, (which will happen soon enough with some very exciting events...) that dress - 25c; shoes - 25c.
What baby can dress better than that for 50 CENTS?!
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Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Caught Red-Handed
She disappeared for a couple of long minutes that were waaaaay too quiet and suspicious.
We found her like this, in the act, at the scene of our secret closet candy stash. Now that she's discovered it, she always runs to our closet door any chance she can get and before closing the door on us waves at us and says "Bye, bye."
Then ::SLAM. WRINKLE, WRINKLE::
Ha, so chubby. She has chocolate drool dripping from her lips. :) That's my girl!
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